2026-09-09

-- 17:01

Here at Magic Kingdom where I already located a (well known) spot where doing some work or relaxing on my laptop is easy and comfortable. Storybook Circus is the location, and specifically the tent next to Pete's Silly Sideshow. There are even charging plugs here. But I'm just here on my own external battery, since I don't have my charger with me. But that's okay. I have more than enough juice to do what I want-- which I guess is the question, the mantra, today: "What do I want?"

I'm listening to the book Polywise because I've been curious about the work that needs to go into relationship care and building to do so. I'm currently, happily, in a monogamous, if not monogamish relationship. Having the tools seems important to me before making any sort of changes. The book is explaining the LOVE U and EASE system for parts work. Where you Locate, find the Origin Story, Validate, Embrace and Update parts of yourself. Or continuing the work EASE, Externalize, Ask, Support (? might have this wrong) and Educate the part. In this case, the monogamous, monogamish and polyamorous parts of the self. But the method and work can be used for all sorts of parts of the self.

Anyway, the book is playing in my ears, so by typing at the same time I'm almost certainly not getting all of it. So I'll probably put this away for a moment so I can pay attention.

One thing I'm going to migrate after I find a stopping point, will be my Disney 2026 Annual Pass log, from my notes into a note fed passage here in my personal blog.

-- 22:31

I’m in El Centro, my socks and feet are so wet, I need to pack my slides in the car or at least some other form of backup shoes. There was some other precaution I figured I should always take… I think it was an extra pair of socks and having one of the poncho-in-a-bag at the ready, at least in the car. Although our ponchos are in the car so, idk if that would have helped.

Sarah Freedom is eminent! That's why I'm here, and what my automation says around the time she is almost off work. I also have another automation that sends when I've arrived here. I want to make a bunch more, and perhaps tie them to something that can be checked as a feed of some sort, or if not that public, something I can look at and reflect on answering with timestamp'd automations: "When was I at and when did I leave these key spots in my local world?"

My wet feet are really, really uncomfortable. Almost enough that I will just head back to the car earlier than normal, I normally wait till at least the :45 mark when her shift ends. A Pluto cartoon caught my eye and I found myself cranking my neck far to the right.

I checked my qst0 website and pulled an esteem generation card:
"I am free to choose to love as I wish and to give priority to my desires"

Rather fitting for the situation I find myself considering, I love my partner so much, endlessly it seems every time I reflect upon it! But, I am a strong in my feeling that love, even romantic love, is not a zero sum situation. But I am realistic enough to know, from experience even, how risky such thinking is-- with time, presence, location, culture and many other factors all playing against such a dream. So messy does it get when you must-- as the card says: give priority to your desires. Considering desire and priority, they almost sit in different rooms. Desire, to be controlled and stoked as to not lose its flame. Priority to be carved out and reordered as situations change. Perhaps they are more alike than I lead on. But it would seem priority, unlike desire, does not come reflexively. Desire, needing to be prioritized to obtain a higher esteem shows that. Priority looming over desire like a warden, allowing it when perhaps it is not a threat to structure already in place.

Time to go out to the car, I'll write more later maybe.

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